12/31/2008

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Never Wavered

I imagine most of you know I don't do resolutions. Many times I would make the decision to lose weight during the next year... only to have failed miserably. I always felt embarrassed near the end of the year, when I realized I hadn't been able to keep my resolution. For several years I thought I might quit smoking, resolving at the end of the year to be smoke free by the end of the coming year. That didn't happen, till the day of April 5, 1976. I don't believe I'd made the resolution to quit, because I'd already become pretty cynical by then. Instead, what brought about this change in my life was the feeling I was already beginning to die as a result of smoking. In the factory, most restrooms for the assembly line required a climb of 30 steps. After enjoying the last cigarette in the pack at 9:35 AM, I began the climb, only to have to stop halfway to catch my breath. I was much smaller then, so it wasn't due to my weight. At the top, I began to cough violently, coughing blood into the trashcan. This scared me and I thought I'd 'bought the farm'. Convinced it was already too late to do anything about it, I took the extra pack of cigarettes out of my lunchbox, and gave it away. Every time I felt the urge for a smoke, I prayed.

I wasn't 'going to church' at the time. At best, Id' say I was a 'back-slider', a saved, but lost... sinner. But, God heard my prayers and gave me the strength to end that habit. Today, I've been 'smoke free' for 32 years, 7 months, 26 days and (at this moment) 22 hours and four minutes! I can't tell you the day, month or year I was saved, but the moment I began a new life without further damage to my lungs is one I can calculate to the minute (if you give me a little time). This is why I don't make resolutions. I've never kept a New Year resolution that mattered. But, I did resolve four things on the first day of this year. Numbered one to four they were: 1. Read the bible more. 2. Seek God's will. 3. Pray more. 4. Invite Jesus into my life each day.

Let's see how I did with them. I have read the bible more, but I still feel I don't do it enough. I do find myself stopping more often to listen and try to see or feel what is God's will, instead of charging into a situation depending on my own wits and resources. But, once again I don't feel I do it enough. I know I pray more and I try to take time to pray before doing even some of the simplest things I've done for years. Now, I want to try to remember to take a moment to pray before driving, shopping or beginning my daily routine. I still need to work on greeting God first every morning. I have been making it a practice to invite Jesus into my life and heart daily. I realize these words alone can be an invitation into an empty room, unless I come to Him in an attitude of submission and obedience. So, I try to consciously have the attitude that I will submit to His influence in me. These resolutions have been more than the usual 'wishes' for self-improvement. These 'resolves' have changed my life as much as ending the life threatening habit of smoking. I know my relationship with Jesus has deepened. It has, because I've come to realize I can't ask Him to do all the work. I'll never be able to do my share, because His love began before I was born and has never wavered.


Virginia (who helps elders to find jobs) is unsure if she will have a job much longer. Megan has health issues. Connie is in need of financial help to pay the rent and a large fee to the court. Chris is also in need of financial help. Amber is in need of employment. Ginny was to see her doctor yesterday afternoon. Please pray all is well after prayer from the pastor, and/or her doctor can help. 

Father, In You I put my trust to help me keep my resolve to deepen my relationship with Christ Jesus. I want to continue reading Your word, more and more... seeking Your will, praying more and inviting Jesus into my life and heart. I pray in an attitude of submission and obedience. Honoring Your name above all, may Your kingdom come, Your will be done, in earth as in heaven. Give me what I need for the day and forgive my sins, as I forgive other sinners. Lead me from temptation while delivering me from the evil one. Lifting these loved ones for Your touch: Virginia, Megan, Connie, Chris, Amber, Ginny, Susie & Miles P, Kathy, Kristen - Chryl - Jim, Smokey, Carolyn's mom & family, Nancy, John, James - Rockie - Stacie & family, Groeber family, Eldon & Delores, Ed & family, Scott - Linda & children, Cheryl, Terry, Adam, Ruby, Wilma, Maria - Lucas - Sierra, Keith, Donna, Cheryl, Alethea, Glenna, Glenn, YWAM missionaries, Lettie - Gayla & Barry, Terry, Chuck, Ben, Mary, Shawn & Heidi, June, Johnnie, Ken, Chris, Dale, James B, Misty, Dianna, Carley, Victoria, Ralph - wife & son, Doug & Debbie D, Brandelyn & Brock, Meg, Lisa & sister, John, Katy, adoption of Grace, Don, Dean, Kera, Steve V, Tina, Seth, Larry C, Becky, Larry S, John & Carolyn, Jason, Jay & Rick, Linda, Delores, Gary, Melinda, Glen, Lisa, Nadia, David, Beulah, Aaron, John S, Ian, Lynda, Thelma, Mike, Rosetta, Carolyn, Kaitlyn, Judy, Dan F, Tim, Austin, Pam, Lou, Larry, Pastor Dave, Margaret, Ruth, Rick, Carla & children, Baby Kurt - his family, John, Rick, Stan, Lynn, Roger & family, Tom, Valerie, Judy, Paul, Allen Michael, Irene's family, Lacey, Bobby, Donald, Amy - her daughters & husband, Lucinda, Summer & family, Steve, Matt - his 2 year old son & family, Richard, Ma Glenda, Charlie, Amy, Karen, Tia, Ron, Patsy, Leola, Don, Jack, Wendy, Eula & her family, Rob & family, Iris, Carrie - Brandon, Judy, Freddy, Arianne, Corey, Robin & husband, Mark, Georgiana, Martha, T. J., Jerry & Donna, Cubby, Bill, Ted, Silas, Julia, Cathy - Brandon & Ed, Fran, Kris, Joe, Kristie, Mike, Pat, David, Dylan, John, Robin & husband, Eric, Ray, Heather - Scott & family, Warren, Thelma, Bergen, Kenny, Dawn, Jeff & Vicky, Myra, Frances, Jim, Ron, Phil, Randi, Jack, Randy, Dick, Larry & Vicki, Pam, Dave, Archie, Gary, Josh, Tim, Catherine, Lisa - Sam, Woody, Curt, Dustin, Larry, Burt, Jack, Cline, Johnnie, John, Lynn, Norma, Olivia, Drew, Our loved ones in need of salvation and guidance, all who are dependent, depressed or grieving, Those fighting / working for freedom and safety from terror, neglected / abused / missing children, God's servants and churches, those looking for work, in rehab programs, our own families and everyone we hold dear in our hearts. For Yours is the kingdom, the power and the glory forever and ever....  Amen. 

Now the word of the LORD came to me, saying, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations." Then I said, "Ah, Lord GOD! Behold, I do not know how to speak, for I am only a youth." But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a youth'; for to all to whom I send you, you shall go, and whatever I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to deliver you, declares the LORD."  Jeremiah 1:4-8 ESV



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